Looking for comfort in dealing with this writer's block that feels like it might be permanent...so yesterday I made a chart of my writing over the last seven years and pinned down the gaps over one month in length.
And tonight's work was revisiting my old journals to track down what was happening during those (non-summertime) blocked periods.
Haven't exactly found comfort, though at least I know I have over a month yet to go before I set the (non-summertime) record.
I have taken a brief jaunt down memory lane and amused myself in the process. Little tidbits like this:
from Thurs, Mar 4, 2003
...Spend [sic] a while adding enemy fatality numbers I'd hashed out at lunch yesterday to my pops.doc. Afterwards, realized that I had made a ghastly, glaring blunder (told myself: "I might as well go beat my head against the wall for a few minutes, as it obviously won't do any damage!") and had to change parts of "The Shado" chapter...
*chuckles* Ah, it's fun to insult myself in my personal journal. I should do it more often!
Goodness. Do you really think it's permanent?
My Creative Writing lecturer always maintained that writer's block didn't exist. I think she meant that there was always a cause that could be tracked down and eliminated. And it seems you're doing a good job of working toward that.
*hugs* Anyway, I hope you work things out. I wouldn't want to be permanently deprived of such wonderful writing.
I really hope not. But if something doesn't get better for me on the inside, I'll never write again.
I partially agree with her. Oftentimes things that stop me are sickness, work overload, something like Sept 11, death in the family, etc. But other times I've stopped because I just plain don't know what happens next, and I can't move ahead until I find out.
*hugs back* Thank you.
On April 20th, 2007 08:52 pm (UTC), (Anonymous) commented:
okay, so it might be humorous when you insult yourself...but that's just cuz you're funny. BUT, i happen to know that you have an amazing brain...so be careful with it, k?
i'll keep praying for you on the writer's block...i can't imagine life without you writing!
Heh, but messing up is part of being human! I'd rather laugh at myself about those blunders then get too uptight. I should have posted the bit about throwing my new credit card in the garbage and having to go dig for it...actually, I've had to get credit cards out of the trash twice! =)